Tag: baking

Let me give some context as all we seem to hear is “self care this” or “self care that”.

Earlier this year I was raped twice in six days by the same animal, whom was once a friend of mine, who in effect spent nearly 4 years obtaining deep personal information about me, about my past, acknowledging and validating my past lived experience of both mental distress but also deep trauma. Anyways I actually reported the two rapes to the police, like ya know they say you should and the whole #MeToo movement has galvanised the world to sit up and give a voice to what many let go unspoken, unreported and list goes on.

Last week the police came out to see me, they have concluded due to lack of witnesses and CCTV, despite having forensics, and statements, copies of text messages this bastard sent me they can’t take the case forward.  This for obvious reasons has left me rather fed up of the system and rather broken. and the result being my mental health has yet again had a knock.

anyways back to Self Care n this particular blog.

I am my own worse enemy in a ot of ways I know what advice to give others in a similar situation whom experience similar emotions to me but applying to myself possibly due to internalised abilism fails to occur to instead I just mull it over and self blame.

Today I opted to be proactive.

I baked 2 dozen blueberry and banana cupcakes.  Might not sound much but it helped a little to do something small (and tasty)

The recipe was a simple one:

2 eggs, 200g plain flour, 2 bananas smashed up, 200g butter, 1 teaspoon baking powder, 200g caster sugar (and I added in a cup worth of frozen blueberries)

Mix up the sugar and butter, add in the flour and baking powder and then add the fruit, then simply put in cupcake cases and bake for 30 minutes at 190′.

The house smells fantastic and Jemima and Chris will enjoy them and it took a hour away from my head and toxic negative thoughts due to having to concentrate on what I was doing and focus.

EDIT: Jemima has just got home from school and already demolished two, they must taste good!